Days 138-144. I started counseling sessions with my mom. Not sure how it’s going to workout.

She loves me, but not in the unconditional way. Though I’m sure she will continue to love me even if I make a mistake, I feel like she will never look past it.

She’s like a shadow that looms behind me constantly trying to influence my mind to make the decisions she wants.

I wish for that to not be true, since she does want what’s best for us, but its hard to picture.

I know all I think is just assumption. I know the truth is the complete opposite, but I can’t help thinking that way when things go awry.

Praying counseling works.

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