Days 175-179. I hate that people keep telling me to cheer up or move on or get over things and continue with my life.

I’m exhausted. I’m tired of being sad. I want this grief to leave me. I wish i could just keep my mind off of the situation everyday so that I wouldn’t be affected or sad anymore.

But that’s not the way things work.

I know grieving takes time. I’m trying to figure out how long, but it feels like forever.